How have you been this past month? Good I hope. Have I missed much?
Well, what started as an unintended week off from blogging seems to have ended up spanning a whole month, which is the longest i’ve not blogged for in all the 7 years I’ve been doing it!
Seven years of blogging 2-3 times a week.
Seven years of outfit photos and ramblings.
Seven years of sharing on the internet.
Its been quite the journey.
I was always afraid to take anytime off from blogging previously, if i had a holidays planned I would write and schedule content before hand or I would ask some friends to contribute for me. The longest i ever went was a week and that was down to the summer holidays and being busy with kids. I always felt guilty if I didn’t blog, not so much for the readers as i know you’re not all waiting with baited breathe to see what Rachel’s going to post next 😉 But it was more of a if i’m not a blogger, what am I? Which is a rather big question to ask oneself and I’m still not sure of the answer if i’m honest.
I also worried i would loose traffic, followers and page views etc. But it got to the point where it just wasn’t flowing for me. It wasn’t fun anymore, and although this has been my job/income for the past 3 years and jobs aren’t always fun, that I grant you, I felt really disconnected by the whole thing. I would find myself sat at my laptop just browsing the internet, shopping way too much out of boredom and just generally not feeling very inspired. A whole day could pass and i would have just written a couple of paragraphs and maybe edited some photos. It just felt like i was wasting my own time.
And to be perfectly honest I just ran out of words.
I kept proffering the idea of new posts in diary format or new updates and even dabbled with the idea of mini blogs everyday to coincide with my insta daily outfit, but nothing stuck.
So one week bled in to the next and before i know it a full month has passed!
And today marks the month to the date. So I decided to write about it 🙂
This month has been BUSY! I have been more hands on with my kids, less worried about what i wear (to the point where i’m only posting maybe 3 outfits a week on insta, which is massively down on the 7 days a week i was!), I’ve done far more around the house and we’ve even started tackling some big renovations; front garden is done, conservatory converted to a games room, now we are on to the refurb of the kitchen and then on to our main downstairs living/dining room before we go upstairs and tackle the bathroom.. it has been go, go, go and it’s felt amazing!
My mind has been present and in the moment more, I’ve been less worried about taking outfit pics and more about playing outside with my son and I’ve been ploughing any spare funds and energy in to the renovations in our house, which so far has been so rewarding.
If you’ve been a long time reader here then you may have seen this coming. Since January I have felt a shift and not known what to do with it.
So, what does this mean?
Well, after a lot of thinking i’ve decided i’m not going to quit the blog. I did wonder if i should just leave it here and walk away, but i realised in true Rachel form (i am the first to admit i am fickle!) I knew i would change my mind if i just called it quits for good and i would want back in at some point.
And true enough i kind of do, as sat here typing and letting these words just stream out feels kind of nice!!
But going forward I am going to blog when I want. I’m not going to have a fixed structure of so many times a week, or certain days or certain posts even. I’m just going to blog. I guess i’m reverting back to hobby status, which makes me feel happier just at the thought of it.
I’m taking the pressure off and letting whatever happens just happen. And that will mean blogging whenever the mood strikes.
I’ve also found my style to be super casual and repetitive lately, of which I’m actually really fine with. Its what i call ‘Unremarkable dressing’ in the sense of, its nothing to remark upon, just a nice top and jeans perhaps, but it looks smart and is comfy which is just what i need on the daily. I’m no longer buying things that will gain lots of ‘likes’, i.e the attention grabbing pieces, i’m just all about the normal lately. Normal and unremarkable.. totally selling it to you here aren’t I?! Ha!! But it’s what I’m finding myself happy in. Honestly the thought of being trussed up in a frilly pretty dress and heels to do another B&Q run does not fill me with joy…Practical has pretty much been the call of the day most days (with the occasional pretty blouse thrown in.. like the one above that i grabbed from the dregs of the M&S sales rails) and that’s ok with me.
I do have some cool stuff coming up so i will be sure to show and share and even though i’ve been looking at house stuff there may have been the odd try on/ new piece here or there so outfits will be shared soon i’m sure.
But yes, this is me checking in, letting you all know that I’m alive and actually feeling pretty damn good.
Hope you’re all ok with this and understand that its most definitely not you, its me LOL!! But no seriously it actually is me.
Anyway, enough about me, how are you?