Funny story, this was supposed to be posted on Monday but apparently someone didn’t hit the schedule button(ahem me) and someone also hasn’t been back to the blog since Sunday either.. (that would be me again). I feel terrible as it really goes to show how much i’ve been neglecting this space of late. But after a really, really low January I’ve been trying to focus on my happiness, and as much as that’s going well (yay for me), it’s also meant i’ve been a bit reclusive in my on selfish ways. I haven’t been watching or reading any news, magazines or articles, I couldn’t tell you what the latest and greatest trends/tv programmes/ things to do/see are, I’m really out of the loop. But happiness has found me again and that felt more important to regain than anything else.
I’ve been reading again, lots and lots of reading which always makes me feel like i’m in my own little imaginary world. God help the husband if he interrupts .. he gets the evil glare if he interferes during the latest plot twist of whatever book i’m reading. But its what i needed. I’ve been walking my dog again and enjoying the fresh air. I’ve been meal planning but also not beating myself if i eat a few biscuits or have a weekly takeaway. I’ve been learning to be ok with who i am at this moment in time.
The thing is, we give so much of ourselves away, whether that be in real life, as a wife or mother, or here on the internet by blogging about our lives, sometimes we just need to take a bit back and know that its not actually selfish, its essential.
You can’t pour from an empty cup as the saying goes.
Now i’ve found some inner peace ( I always thing of kung fu panda when i say that) and banished some demons to the back of the room once again (for now at least, those sneaky blighters have a way of creeping forward again when you’re not looking) I feel I may need to re join the rest of the human race (as tempting as it is to stay in my own little bubble). I need to find out whats going on past my own front door, i need to see how other people are doing and i definitely need to start putting in more effort here on my blog.
I’ve mentioned this before, but i’ve written this blog for six and a half years and sometimes i feel like i’ve kind of run out of words, but then other times i feel like i have so much to say. After a few weeks of “re-centring my self “(sorry that sounds really pathetic i know) i know i need to put more effort in, because ultimately, this blog is also a part of who i am and that it is something i’m extremely proud of.
So sorry if i’ve let you down, sorry if i’ve not been present or a good friend or blogger. I’m making amends starting today.
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