Do you recall back in January I was talking about resolutions and what I would like to attempt to achieve this year? (And if you don't remember, I don't blame you, my memory is diabolical and it’s my own life I'm talking about, that post is here)
Well I have a little announcement to make today which is both exciting and scary (no I'm not pregnant - just throwing that out there)
I have started a creative writing course with the help of M&S Bank’s #makeaswitch campaign.
Reading and writing is something that I have loved since a very young age. I grew up watching my mum read profusely, making weekly trips to the library was standard for our family and reading everything and anything we could get our hands on was how we spent our days (there were only 4 channels of TV when I was young.. reading was where it was at.)
Then as I went in to high school I began to write and I loved it. It was cathartic and immensely enjoyable to me. But then life, jobs and well, boys, got all up in my biz and I kinda started to live and no longer write.
When things settled down and I finally found my footing again with a comfortable, happy life with my family I found blogging. At first it reignited my love for writing, giving me that place I needed to express myself and have a little voice in a big wide world. Four years in and I'm still here, and I love this little place, I truly do. I never realised how much blogging has become a big part of who I am until I sat down to write about it. It's not just a hobby or a job, but a huge part of what makes me tick. It’s like a segment of my personality right here.
But (and when is there not a but, right?) my writing here has always felt limited. Self-limited. Nobody tells me what to write here, nobody but me dictates the words that form on this blank space I type on practically every day, and yet I know my writing wasn't improving.
The thought of something out of my comfort zone, scares the Bejesus out of me.
Blogging is well and truly my comfort zone. I come here, I type, I have a bit of banter with you lovely ladies and then it's on to the next post. It’s fast-paced and forgiving, which is a lovely comfy environment to plonk oneself safely down in and stay there.
But there's this little nagging voice in my head that says 'Shift yourself love... there's more you can do'.
And that is what I'm embarking upon.
M&S Bank offered to fund a course of my choosing to give me a nice polite shove in the right direction.
Which is exactly what I needed.
With their help I chose an online writing course through The UK Writers College in the Basics of Creative Writing.
Starting right where I should, at the very beginning and refreshing my skills and learning a lot of new ones.
You guys, I am so excited. You know that feeling when you go to bed smiling, your head whirling with thoughts and ideas and that fuzzy feeling of pure excitement?
Well that's been me.
I finally feel like I'm doing something for me.
I'm actually doing it and not just talking it.
And my goodness it feels fantastic.
So far I'm only half way through module one and I have enjoyed every second of it.
This is a small passage of 250 words I wrote from just a leading sentence which really helped to get the creative juices flowing... needless to say I am more than a little rusty.
As she turned the radio on Mrs Eedes heard the breaking news.
“A suspected bomb has been detonated at St. Marys High School, causalities are unknown at this present time. Emergency services are on site and dealing with the situation. We will keep you updated with information as and when we receive it”
Mrs Eedes sunk down against the kitchen cabinet as her knees gave way, she starred at the space between her and the radio. Hot tears filled her eyes and burst down her cheek.
“Sammy” She whispered.
So yes I am writing and yes there is masses of room for improvement, of which I will be completely embracing, but I can't believe how much fun I'm having pushing my boundaries and learning new ways to express myself.
It honestly feels like I'm ticking off a major life goal here as it’s something that has been nagging away in the back of my head for far too long.
Going forward? Well complete the course hopefully! Then maybe another course and then maybe eventually start on that book that I've got somewhere (deep, deep, deep down) inside of me.
That's the dream.
And so on that note I will finish on just saying, if you have anything you are dreaming of, that one thing that's nagging you in the back of your head that just won't quit, embrace it. Let it out.
I am the happiest I've been in a long time. Unleash yourself.
Who knows what could happen, am I right?