Even though we still have few days left, to be frank, I am so happy to see the back of it..
This will be looked back on as the month that :
We were burgled, the car broke down, the dog was sick on my leg in the car (thank god for coated jeans.. wipe clean.. genius!) and Neo decided to bring me home a treat.. smooshed up jelly in his lunch box.. Lucky me;)
Apart from dog sick and smooshed up jelly, here's what else has been going on:
We started with a spell of terrible luck, cars braking down and a burglary.
But all things fixed you soon realise there's no point crying over broken cars after all.
It was a harsh lesson to learn so early on in the year but I have to say, from being completely and utterly stressed out of my little mind the first week, I have now learnt to let some of those demons go.
I've started!! Woohoo roll out the flags! (lol) No but seriously, I finally gave myself a kick up the bum to exercise. I really haven't been in the right frame of mind for it and would literally shudder at the mere thought of physical activity. But then I realised that's all part of the lethargy that has been consuming me.
Having quite a sedentary job, sat at my desk for multiple hours a day means this backside doesn't get moving too often. At least when I worked in the travel agents I would walk to and from the car park, out for a bit at lunch time and then up and down from my desk whilst in work.
Now the furthest I go is about 20 feet in to the kitchen to make another cuppa!
Exercise is therefore imperative.
I've started on the Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred, which I started before but never completed and therefore never got 'shredded' as she likes to put it.
But this time, God damn it, I want to be 'shredded'... I want to be Mrs Shredded in fact.
Right now I'm only a few days in and holy hell, it hurts...I literally just groaned getting the 4 pints of milk out the fridge, and going up and down stairs is possibly going to make me keel over.
But I shall do it.. And YOU must keep me accountable.. promise?
I've been looking at treating myself to some new gym gear as a way of keeping myself interested.. because we all know shopping is obviously the answer to all my life problems;)
Thoughts on feeling crappy
You may laugh at this, in fact I hope you do, but I *may*have spent one too many an hour on Pintrest these past few weeks.
And I've decided to limit myself (because quitting seems extreme).
You see, in all seriousness I suffer terribly from comparing myself to others and feeling sub-par to their level.
Its completely self-inflicted, I don't even know why I do it. Always have. But I need to chill the eff out.
My life is not 'pinnable' majority of the time. My kitchen is the size of a stamp and filled with dishes (only some dirty;), my kids leave their toys everywhere (lego piece to the foot anyone?) and the dog likes to join in leaving her toys on mass across the carpet (she's probably worse than the kids in fact). I can't solely blame the kids either, my make-up in strewn across the dresser and there's a pile of clothes just staring at me and patiently waiting to be out away.
Its so easy to get caught up in the 'perfect picture' and feel like your life is crumbling around you in comparison, or that quite frankly you're just not good enough.
Even my outfit photos where comparably awful to the lovely delights of the world of Pintrest.
I was cruelly torturing myself by letting this terrible comparison override my true judgement.
Yeh my house is a teeny tiny messy little place, but so what? We are all happy and healthy and its our mess.
No my outfits never turn out like the ones on Pintrest, but then I am not them.. I am me.
I need to be more accepting of myself. I have room for improvement, but its my room, not me trying to be someone else.
Have you ever fallen sucker to the wonderful world of Pintrest or worse, the constant comparison disorder?
I am still in love with being at home and being here for them everyday when they get off the bus. I previously got home from work most nights about 6.30, with Neo going to bed on a school night at 7pm it meant so little time to be with him.
Working from home can be hard sometimes, quite lonely and all the rubbish house chores fall on me mostly (Have I ever mentioned I am rubbish at house chores.. like REALLY naff, domestic goddess I am not!), but being there everyday for my kids, well that is rewarding enough.
But as any mother out there can vouch, I worry. I worry about them all the time.
Neo my son (as opposed to my two step children) is 5, he's a late summer baby and got in to the year he's in by the very cusp (the literal cusp, being the youngest by far with his 31st August birthday)
I worry he's falling behind, I worry he may feel sad, I worry he can't read yet when others are flying through the books (its that bloody comparison thing again rearing its ugly head), I worry over EVERYTHING. And now I'm home alone I have not many people to confide my worries in. So I'm telling you apparently.
He really is the most wonderful, sweet little boy and I couldn't be more proud, he makes my heart want to burst ten times a day, but still I worry.
Motherhood really is bitter-sweet (mostly sweet).
Well now we're at the tail end of the worst month of the year, we are now able to start making some real plans, which feels nice.
I've mentioned it previously but this month (i mean February) we will be booking our Summer holiday with the kids and also looking at something for ourselves.
We've talked and talked and talked some more about it, and having some time together would mean so much to us. But with a husband who hates flying the ex-travel agent in me suggested maybe a cruising option. I know SO many people who say how marvellous they are.
Could this be the answer to our travel conundrum?
Have you ever cruised? I would love to hear if you have!
Ooo exciting times ahead. I love the turn of the season, when all the new stock comes in and I start prematurely dreaming of Spring. We have had some land this week and it is looking good!! I feel with every season Yosa grows stronger and stronger and the stock gets better and better. This month we have more fabulous new bags and scarves and also some fun statement jewellery of course. But i shall save all that for another post.
I have some fantastic announcements too so that will all be in February. But January for me has seen me launch the Yosa Super Sale and selecting our Spring line.